Sabotage

Do you have a friend who is relatively smart and talented, but just can't seem to do anything with their life?

I do. It's me. I'm a self-saboteur.

Right now (and really all day) I should be showering, getting myself all cute, and shooting a video to send to schools for employment. The agency actually told me to do it back in April.

I've been watching old episodes of Degrassi all day. I've been watching Canadian TV instead of trying to get myself a job. I have two job applications on the floor next to me as well. They've been there since last week.

It might seem like I'm just lazy or an idiot, but I'm not. I just can't do it. I'm sabotaging myself because I can't fail if I don't try. And if I try I will fail.

I see everyone else succeeding around me, and I don't understand why I'm so incompetent. I don't really understand how this whole thing works. I try to look for something, but I get so overwhelmed and I always seem to be getting into the weirdest situations.

How do normal people do it?! Get a job and carry on with life like it's so easy?